Dear Love, I hate you.

It's not usual that I fall in love.
I can tell it chases after me in disguise though
I never see it coming,
So when I sense a hint of it, I take off running.

Rarely does it catch up to me,
but when it does, It wraps my whole heart and theres nothing I can do.

I hate you Love.
I hate the word, your consonants, your vowels.
I hate the way you sedate me at first, so I wont scream and shout.
I hate you Love.

I hate how at first the grass seems greener and the sky so blue.
I hate that urge to hug trees, smell flowers..
I hate how every piece of me comes alive.

I hate that gut wrenching, pukey-diarrhea feeling I get everytime I think of him.
I hate how restless I become.
I hate you Love.

I hate how you make me weak and vulnerable.
I hate the things I do, the things I say.
The faces I make because of you.
Can you humiliate me any more?!?
I hate you Love.

I hate how hard I fall.
So hard I become unconscious of his faults.
How I can't think straight.
How scared I am of you,

I hate you Love.

But I can't live without you--